Is incredibly difficult. Oh my god. Some people know me and will stick by me. Some people don’t and won’t. The first week of raiding isn’t over yet and already 2 people have left. I’ve gotten another 5, 6 to join already, by spending on average 5, 6 hours a day doing pug raids to recruit. We need 20+ good people. We need a ton extra so everyone feels they cannot slack off or else they would be replaced. The extra people are people I need to be responsible for too, make sure they don’t feel they’ve wasted their time coming here and not have a raid to be in. 

And everyday, I worry someone will decide not to stick it out to see what I can build, with time. I worry someone will leave. Maybe we will be at the point where we only need 2 more people to be quite strong indeed. Maybe I’ll find 1, and if 1 original person leaves, I’ll be stuck in the situation of needing to find 2 again. Only then I also need to deal with this leaving affecting everyone’s morale. I’ll also need to deal with incorporating a player into a spot that everyone was used to seeing someone else in. So instead of purely making the group stronger, replacing a strong person who just left will mean, even if I get someone just as strong in, the overall group will most likely be weaker. And I really probably only needed to find 2 more good people, and we would’ve had a really great group. And by then people will probably feel like it’s never going to happen. Stuff like this. Everyday, I worry about this. 

I try to show people my effort. And I think a good amount appreciate it. But still I worry. Few people come to me and and tell me they will stick through it with me. Most people come to me and tell me if it doesn’t look better soon they’ll leave. I feel there is so little leeway, so little tolerance for me to make this work. And I really feel, every single day, thay I’m pulling this guild together and bringing us through everyday by the skin of my teeth.