When I couldn’t fall asleep last night I scrolled through some old posts I wrote in the Syzygy discord. It was amusing. Then I came across the post that led to my suicide attempt.

I read it and couldn’t see why it would lead me to suicide, so then I read the conversation it sparked because curiosity kills the cat.

Rereading that conversation brought everything back. Slowly, steadily, I became more and more upset, just like I did at the time. When I got to the part where in the past I wrote down one last comment, put down the phone, and committed suicide, I had a break down.

Not a smart thing to do the night before raiding sigh. Not a smart thing to do at all I guess. Big mistake.