Went really really well. We performed as only very good players do. I was elated for awhile. But now I’m back to worrying. Will it last? If we go from very good to mediocre performance next week, will people start leaving again? Will those who said they will transfer really transfer in time? 

Also, I’ve been trying out other things like having separate guild officers and raid officers. In my mind I like to keep these things separate, where one group helps me with guild stuff and taking care of overall guild direction, while the other group helps me with the raid stuff, and being responsible for helping each and every person improve. But since most guilds don’t do this, I worry that the officers will start feeling that if they don’t get to participate in all officer (guild or raid) related stuff, this means I’m not valuing them or trusting them enough. On the other hand, I really don’t want 6 or more people giving me their advice about all the things in the guild and the raid. How will I manage to do this without making people feel unvalued, hurt, or left out? 

When, oh when, can I feel like I don’t need to constantly worry about someone being upset and leaving, or instigating others to leave? When, oh when, can I relax and actually feel a sense of contentment about what I’m doing, instead of going from elation to dread, from dread to elation?