Today we were back up to 22 people. The raid went smoother. We should have killed more bosses though. We did struggle a bit here and there when we shouldn’t have. Tomorrow will be progression on star auger hopefully, even if we do skip krosus. So tonight I’ll have to study hard. Watch as many vids as possible, figure out timings to watch out for, etc.

We finished doing the achievement run after raid, or a few of us did. That was nice and relaxing, and I could again feel like I was doing well. Maybe it’s because it’s only an achievement run, with less pressure for us to not make mistakes, and that’s why I can feel that I’m doing well as a leader. During progression, anytime anyone makes mistakes more than one time, I’m likely to feel it’s my fault for not leading or making callouts better. And when we do do things well, I don’t particularly feel it’s thanks to me, even though I suppose logic would dictate it to be so, to a certain degree. But I’m more apt to just feel relief that it’s done, or to feel it’s due to everyone’s help and cooperation. Plus, after a kill I’m more focused on where to go next. Maybe I can enjoy feeling good about myself if we finish the last boss, but probably only then.

I’m still incredibly worried about recruitment. A couple of our strongest dps for the weekend group won’t be joining this weekend. Can we do it then? Will we get enough people in time? We only have 2 days left. And I still need to keep recruiting for the weekday group. Sigh. Hopefully I can find a recruitment officer soon.