My last post concerning my experiences in WoW was September 1, 2018. That would be nearly 7 months ago.
I read an article in the New York Times about procrastination (link below). The gist of it was that procrastination is a result of being unable to overcome the short term negative emotions associated with the task. This inability trumps all rational assessment about how kicking it down the road will just make you feel worse, as well as rational thought connected to knowing that the task itself is probably not as big a deal as our feelings are making it.
So, I feel like that very accurately portrays my situation with writing about my experiences in WoW. The negative emotions I have associated with the next chapter of things are multi-layered. Needing to remember what happened at the time is the base layer. Writing the ones concerning Syzygy before put me in a hugely bad mood the couple days I was researching, structuring, and writing the post. And I knew that basically all the next posts were just going to add onto that.
Then, the next layer was deciding how much I wanted to say. Some of the drama that happened involved drama between others, and I couldn’t decide how much I was at liberty to make public. I had decided long before that that as long as the issue pertains to my guild and affects the community in a negative way, those associated do not have a right to expect that I, as one of those hurt by their actions, maintain their privacy. However, some issues were drama that happened between individuals, that later expanded to hurt the guild. Some of those individuals involved, though, did nothing to hurt the guild, and were themselves hurt by the drama. In making what happened public, would I not be adding insult to their injury by ignoring their right to privacy? This was another hurdle I have had trouble getting past, and added a layer of negative emotions to the task of writing down what happened.
Then, another layer involved how I wanted to structure the posts. Before that, my posts had been structured chronologically. “These were all the things that happened in this time frame”. However, sometimes a multitude of things happen within a time frame, involving various cliques or various issues that may have nothing to do with each other. On top of that, some issues were encompassed by the time frame, but others would extend beyond it, and therefore wouldn’t fit within the purported scope of the post.
Having read that New York Times article, though, I’m determined to give a go at overcoming the desire to procrastinate on this by being aware of these negative emotions, and seeing what I can do to get past them.
Lijiworld 