I had a conversation with someone today that brought back all my trauma from the past. And the result of the conversation is that I once again need to sacrifice my personal well being for the happiness of raiders. I can do this, but just like I knew this would tear me down before, I know it will again this time.

Maybe I don’t have it in me to go long term. Maybe I just don’t have the mental fortitude and resilience needed. Maybe I need to start planning for a way where my eventual breakdown will not harm the guild.