A few months ago my guild and I went through a crisis. The result of the crisis is that we had to abandon my guild, Syzygy, and ended up reforming under the name of Syzygys. During this time, I had a lot of thoughts and went through a lot of mental upheaval. I did my best to record it all in real time, since I regretted not doing so the last time when I was guild master/raid leader. At that time, years ago, I had occasionally written some private journal entries that I did not connect with this blog, and looking back on it years later I find it interesting and poignant. Most stories of emotional crises are written after the crises are over, and people have had time to process what happened. What is written in the midst of the crisis has its own specific truth and flavor that is much harder to capture when writing in retrospect.
However, there was a lot of information that was sensitive at the moment of the crisis, that I did not feel comfortable making public at the time. Some of it, I still don’t feel comfortable making public. Some of it, I may never feel comfortable making public. But as about 3 months has passed, and Syzygys is stable and doing well, I feel that I can revisit some of what I wrote to slowly unveil what I feel comfortable unveiling. When I wrote it at the time, I either made it Private or Password-Protected. If it were Private, no one would be able to see that I even wrote anything. As I open them up, I will add them to a list in this post. For some of them, I may make additional posts with some of my current thoughts, now that I have had time to process and heal.
Protected: The dangers of resting
Private: Today, I had to do something harsh
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